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We settle into a sustainable workflow today as the lively Leo energy morphs into earthy Virgo. The sensitive Moon leads the charge as she slips into practical Virgo at 6:32 am EDT. We are more interested in operating efficiently behind the scenes than receiving accolades for getting the job done. Rational Mercury follows the Moon, returning to its home sign later this evening. Focusing intently on the details enables us to manage complex logistics.

You may begin a process of detaching from the busyness of social activities as yesterday’s fun becomes today’s distraction. An associate might criticize your behavior if he or she feels abandoned by your disappearing act. But you are not trying to escape; in fact, you’re doing whatever you can to increase your productivity over the days ahead. Don’t waste energy attempting to justify your temporary self-imposed isolation. Benjamin Franklin wrote, “Well done is better than well said.”

Today has started off with about two hours sleep while Peter has had much more.  We headed to bed at about 5:00 am and I think that is becoming our new habitual bedtime.  I seem to be doing OK so long as I keep an eye on my feet.  Swollen feet only means that it is time for bed to lay down and relieve the pressure on my feet.  Well now, it seems that there is one more reason to go to bed, eh?

Operation Highjump?

Yesterday and today were much the same in terms of sleep and wakeful activities.  I began working on a milk truck that is a Matchbox tanker truck.  It is a Maisto Milk tanker that has a blue cab and a white with black blotches tank on it’s frame.  I have yet to measure out the actual physical dimensions and scale in HO terms as to what it might actually be.  Whether a pickup truck or larger is something I have to figure out.

I began working on the milk tanker by drilling off the frame with wheels.  It was difficult to drill the one eighth inch drill by using a small pair of vicegrips.  There were three holes to drill.  One extended hole inside the cab had to be cut down to level the cab ceiling.  A black plastic insert had made the windows and windshield.  I cut and glued in clear plastic to make clear windows.  

I started to make the interior of the cab with thin balsa wood set on the chassis.  I had to make a fine fitting floor and dash to slide inside the cab below the clear plastic of the windows.  The inside of the cab was painted with white enamel.  There was dripping paint that ran onto the clear plastic windows.  So, I had to remake the windows and windshield for the fourth time.

There was space on the sides of the chassis where fuel tanks could go.  I roughed out plastic tubes of an approximate size.  I had to cut ends for the two pieces of tube to complete the fuel tanks.  Then I glued in the plastic tubes onto the chassis in the right place for fuel tanks.  Only painting the fuel tanks is left to be done.

It has taken quite a bit of work to detail the wheels.  First was the rough cut file used to change the cross cut tread on the wheels to a round the wheel alignment.  It was hard to hold the little wheels with sufficient grip to file the plastic tread.  I accidentally ground down hard onto my thumb nail and gouged a sizeable wound.  When I finished filing the wheels, I rubbed ashes around the tread areas to mimic used tires.  It looks great for all of that effort.

Back at working on the cab meant replacing the clear plastic windows.  It was an effort to cut out replacement pieces of clear plastic.  Then, I used tweezers to place the pieces of clear plastic onto preglued edges of the windows.  Then, I used extra blobs of glue to anchor the newly placed pieces of clear plastic.  It sounds so simple to explain and yet so difficult to do when actually performing the task of replacing the clear plastic windows.

I haven’t taken any pictures of the work I have done with the milk tanker.  There are many habits that I have to pick up again now that I am working on detailing again.  It is often crude work that takes only a few touchups to make good.  And, it is something that I have historically photographed in a way to explain to kids on how to do things.  That is my underlying intention, anyways.


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Sleeping in Light

Babylon 5 is an epic as much as other epics like Startrek, Starwars, and other space programs.  We all love to see the likely portrayals of what the future might be like only if.  It is the only if part that sets the pace and background for those fictions we enjoy so much.  But, what if it were true in the real sense of  being true?  Wouldn’t you care to know if there will be a future as predicted by our fictionalized accounts of possibilities written about by famous authors.  I know I certainly hope the best of things for humanity despite what possibilities are balanced in the wings of fantastic stages set up for TV and Video alike.


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We’re buzzing with energy today as we build upon events already in process. We can’t contain our excitement while clever Mercury trines ingenious Uranus, creating a stream of innovative ideas. However, we must set aside the notion of immediate gratification when resourceful Venus opposes stern Saturn, reminding us to persevere. The best is yet to come, but we can’t force time to bring us the future any faster just because we’ve run out of patience.

You have your heart set on a big-ticket item today, but you may need to process your disappointment if you face financial constraints. Perhaps you decide it is prudent to forgo a fancy shopping excursion or delay your acquisition of a fine piece of art. Stop the purchase of anything you don’t actually need now; Turn your attention away from the material world and toward life-altering experiences. Fortunately, your friends are there to help you through this rocky transition with plenty of fun suggestions. Collect memories, not objects.

Today, ah, er, ah I mean to say yesterday, started off with a little bit of sleep and mostly time watching movies and YouTube.  I suppose I could have tried to go to sleep but I just wasn’t motivated to do that.  Actually I was interested in the articles I did read during that time with StupidThree.  I don’t really know how much learning I do with the Internet.  

Peter looks forward to every night when he cuddles up with me at his side.  He can’t imagine not going to sleep without me. I do go to sleep with him, but I get up a few hours later to stay up all night.  Then, come morning, I take a short nap.  I nap out in the afternoons.  I nap out in the evenings.  Then, I nap to go to sleep with Peter, it seems.

That I don’t sleep with him upsets Peter to no end.  He accused me of avoiding him all day and night.  Am I losing interest in him?  Does it not please me in any way?  On and on the accusations go to display his anger at my not sleeping with him at night.  All I do is to try to assure him that I love him although I just can’t sleep.  I suppose there are enough reasons as to why I can’t sleep at regular times in a habitual manner.  Hm.



                                                                                                                                            
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Safety at the Beach

With hordes of summer vacationers, bacteria and fungi in the sand, beaches aren't always as clean as you might expect. Here are a few basic hygiene tips and precautions to take when enjoying time on the sand.

Beaches and fine sand are home to many viruses, parasites and bacteria. Thankfully most of these are harmless. But, unlike seawater at regulated bathing spots, the quality and cleanliness of sand isn't tested or monitored, and some beaches are cleaner than others.
To prevent fungal infections, skin diseases and other irritations this summer, try getting into good hygiene habits with these simple tips:

- Don't lie down directly on the sand to limit the risk of fungal infections. Lay out a straw mat, a rug or a thin beach mat under your towel, which should be washed or changed frequently.
 Shower as soon as possible, preferably on the beach if showers are available, or at least wash your hands and feet before heading home. Wash bathing suits and towels as often as possible.

- Make sure babies and young children don't eat sand and don't put their hands in their mouths after touching or playing with sand.

- Use an antiseptic hand gel regularly to keep hands clean, especially before eating. Sand can be home to the eggs of pinworms and ascaris worms, spread by cats and dogs, which can lead to infestations in the gut. These are unpleasant but aren't usually serious.
- Don't let babies or children play on the beach with no nappy or swimsuit. Letting kids run around naked isn't hygienic. Little girls risk catching vulvitis, a benign infection of the genitals.

- Don't dig around in the sand with bare hands or dig deep, as the micro-organisms, fungi and parasites that live there could get stuck under your nails.

- Don't leave any leftover food, waste food or rubbish on the beach. Don't bury it either. Take it home or find a bin.
 Don't take your dog or pet to the beach. While each beach or locality may have its own rules on whether dogs are allowed on the beach, animals are often forbidden for hygiene reasons.

- Take extra care in the tropics. Bites and stings from sand fleas and sandflies can cause severe itching. Avoiding the beach around sunrise and sunset is particularly recommended.

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We’re not satisfied with the status quo today, so we may stir up a bit of mischief as the assertive Aries Moon connects with flirtatious Venus and jovial Jupiter. However, we might be too quick to go out on a limb before we test its strength. Meanwhile, we’re willing to fight for our freedom of choice while Venus in whimsical Gemini dances with sexy Mars and potent Pluto. Exercising a touch of self-restraint prevents trouble down the road.

People may seem overly assertive today, prompting you to question everyone’s motives. However, their behavior might turn passive-aggressive, denying that they expect anything from you. Although you can see through their claims of innocence, you really don’t want to confront anyone further and end up in a protracted confrontation. Take a few steps back now and reestablish your emotional boundaries. Author Mandy Hale wrote, “Pick your battles. You don’t have to show up to every argument you’re invited to.”


Today started off at midnight when Peter woke me up to take my pills and talk to Mom.  I took my pills before Peter retrieved my phone for me in bed.  I began talking to Mom.  We actually talked for over an hour while she did most of the talking.  Mom knows where most of the relatives are buried and includes where she will also go.  I am not that lucky, I suppose.

I frequently get UTI’s which doesn’t help much.  The antibiotic is something I am starting to get reactions to.  For now, I sleep a lot and feel doped up and sickly.  I am allergic to a whole lot of things but I still take fifteen prescriptions daily.  Most of it is for pain which without them I would be in a catatonic state deeper than sleeping.  Believe I take my prescriptions religiously because I want to live a reasonable life.  I do have to quit smoking.

Peter's daughter Jan, and her family of husband Mahvin, daughter, Victoria, daughter  Jessie, and son John, all came to Ottawa three days ago.  They toured around Ottawa and visited with us twice.  On Friday afternoon at 4:00 pm, they left in their van to go back to Toronto.  We don't see them often enough but we do have a great time together.  Peter is happy that we have such a great connection to them all.

I am glad I an writing this out because I wouldn’t be able to explain it all as clearly as what I am doing with writing.  I can’t keep my thoughts from wandering because of AS, ADD, PTSD, and so many memories to remember.  I have had a busy life and that is all for the good to think about.  Despite my troubles, I have a good life that anyone would enjoy, especially me.

I slept off and on through the morning.  Peter slept right through until noon.  We were sleepy when we woke up but we were willing to go and do something.  It was a matter of doing things around home before we could go anywhere.  So, what with all of the little things being taken care of and fresh coffee made, it was soon time for us to go.

We didn’t really have a plan when we left home.  I was only of a mind to go to the Ottawa River.  How we got there and where we went from there was not a concern to Peter or me.  We actually had been going out almost every day and this was just another day with no appointments in it and we feeling well enough to do something.  

We started off heading for the Rideau Canal.  We followed the Rideau Canal to Dows Lake and turned north at the rail line.  The rail line took us past the last train station and on to the Ottawa River only a little further.  Our hikes had allowed us to cover most of the Ottawa area so we wanted to do something different.  We turned left at the river and headed west.  We went as far as the Hoodoos where an artist piles rocks all summer long to make little statues and markers of an artistic sort.

The Hoodoos became famous over the years as the artist practiced every summer.  The winter ice would wash away the creations and a fresh batch of Hoodoos would be made the following summer.  After a few years, the artist applied for a grant to do his creations and get paid for it more than just donations to support himself.  This year was particularly wet, so the river was higher than normal for decades.  We came along and the whole area of the Hoodoos had a flooded beach.

It was disappointing to see the flooded beach.  We didn’t want to go further west because those areas were also under flood conditions.  So, we turned around and headed back the way we came.  We still had a great day that had included a little adventure.  We were out in the sun on a summer day and we had great tans to show it.


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    I am sorry we haven't connected lately and I have been very sick.  I am on antibiotics for ten days to quell an Urinary Tract Infection and a very painful right side of my abdomen.  Hopefully it will fix things for me.  Meanwhile I am sleeping a lot.  I am reacting to the antibiotics in a bad way so sleeping is keeping me on them and still out of the hospital.

Would you be able to tell me where Chris is buried so that we might visit.  Peter is legally blind so he uses GPS and his experiences of living in Toronto to get around.  Would you be able to get a Google Earth marker for him?  For that matter, would you make one for yourself for when we make it to Toronto.  It would make things so much easier in navigating.  We would want to visit with you too.

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Minor problems surface as we explore hidden aspects of love. On a practical level, we can't deny that we're intrigued by the unknown. However, our persistence is rewarded while magnetic Venus harmoniously trines shadowy Pluto, facilitating intense emotional interactions. But the reserved Cancer Moon is more comfortable when we feel more and share less. Nevertheless, we're driven to push past our fears and discover the magic of the dark.

You're drawn into a complicated melodrama that raises a familiar issue. It's difficult to maintain emotional distance when feelings intensify today. You can become consumed by a friend's crisis because you're willing to offer a sympathetic ear and a strong shoulder. The current circumstances might remind you of another power struggle when you were not in control, but don't let these memories shut you down prematurely. You have a significant role to play in someone's life now; be there for the people who matter.

It was 10:30 am when I woke up after having gone to sleep at about 3:45 am.  I feel somewhat disconnected and fuzzy about my sense of reality.  I had a smoke and took my morning pills.  Now to wait until those little pill wonders take effect and eliminate my pain level enough to think clearly.  I hate having to wait until pill effect comes about.

I started up StupidThree and began the work of starting my blog material.  It is a flat wonder of looking at the latest news until the Tarot network connects.  A few moments of world news is about all I can stand at the moment.  It’s not that I give two hoots about world news, but that I am so shakey with my fingers and thoughts.  Shake!  Shake!  Shake your booty!

We live at an elevated level of about a hundred feet above ground in a small valley caused by the Rideau River.  A major traffic artery flows past near by on that level ground by the river.  The sound of traffic flowing is diminished by a wave of media sounds blasting from the distant Landsdown complex carried over to us by the light morning breeze brushing the forest surrounding the little Sawmill Creek burbling below us with that waterwheel turning the creek bottom with a century old splashing pulse.  The mix of sound levels can be so soothing to relax to while sitting on the balcony repulse beside the technology networked abode we inhabit at the south center district of downtown metropolis of Ottawa city boasting a million strong population.  We do what we do.

Peter is still sleeping while the alarm radio plays a local radio station in the main bedroom at the back of the two bedroom apartment.  I, in my kimono, sit in a silent gloom while pondering my list of half a dozen partially finished blogs list loaded in my wordprocessor program.  StupidThree is a critical component of my daily functions and amusement.  Time slips away ever so quickly when I am linked up with distant realms of conjecture and alternate realities.

A third week of Peter’s Rehab Center attendance has passed away.  My twice daily expeditions to deliver Thermos coffee has temporarily ended for this brief weekend.  Peter dreams while I design the next stages of construction and all of those repairs needed to maintain fleets and flights of my accomplishments.  It is all for the best that my inactivity has gone on this long while I relinquish my addictions and of the moment during my sojourn into oblivion.

St Jean Baptist Day, the holiday is bright, warm, and wonderfully summer like as we all like it.  It is too bad that we can’t have all days like today, so nice and pleasant.  I suppose there is some confirmation of facts concerning balance in everything to do with life and all exertions of humanity in every respect.  There is only so much that can be measured and compared in any way that can be seen in a reasonable manner.

The highlight of this afternoon was the quick short trip in our trusty van down to our homey trailer in storage.  The nineteen foot long trailer has been invaded by field mice and other sorts of little critters.    

We bought sticky traps to catch the rodents within the interior of the trailer.  Sticky traps are not a dangerous item like a regular spring loaded mouse trap that maims or kills.  For that reason alone, I consider sticky traps to be cruel punishment of innocent little critters who just want to live peacefully.  Oh well.   

It isn’t nice to have two sleeping bags, a pillow, and a comforter chewed into ruin for t he sake of a nest or two.  The stuffing of cotton materials had been spread out in the bathroom, and along the walkway along the kitchen counter and between the queen sized bed to the same sized dining feature of table or bed.  The damage done by the mice is more than just the chewing of things.  They leave germs and mouse droppings where they go that makes it unsafe for people who have to put up with the mess.

Peter is happy that we are taking care of our trailer even while it is in storage.  But, Peter is depressed that we don’t use the trailer any where near what we should be using it for camping and travels.  We do want to travel although our health is not up to dealing with the physical demands of us that would be needed.  We do need go juice of at least two different kinds.  One kind is for ourselves in having the health to be able to travel and the other go juice is the kind that would enable us to pay actual cash for our travel expenses.  It isn’t anything cheap that we intend for ourselves.

Here I am writing about our little travel trailer when I should be writing about the many trials and tribulations I am going through in just existing in disabled and sickly circumstances.  Another round of sputum tests and antibiotics for my UTI.  I don’t know the root cause of the steady malady of UTI that besets me as quickly as a few days after I finish taking a course of antibiotics.  They say it is merely a condition that one must bear.  Grr!

Being as disabled and sick as I am, I should not be travelling by electric wheelchair back and forth twice daily just to take Peter some fresh hot Thermos coffee.  It is a small thing in comparison to the efforts that Peter expended in keeping up with my needs while I was hospitalized.  Actually, a big difference.   


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Your answers reveal that kindness is your most dominant personality trait. You are very sensitive to others and rarely have a bad thing to say about anyone. People are constantly impressed by your thoughtfulness. If someone is having a bad day, you always seem to know how to make it better.

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We may land with a hard thud today as karmic Saturn enters the cosmic picture. The Sun's annual opposition to Saturn throws obstacles into our path if we've been avoiding our responsibilities or seeking shortcuts to success. A harsh Venus-Saturn aspect can create disappointment in love or a financial shortfall. Nevertheless, the Moon's shift into imaginative Pisces at 6:17 am EDT reminds us that a reality check doesn't mean we must stop dreaming.

You might wake up with lofty intentions today, aiming to be methodical about accomplishing your goals. But as the day wears on, you could become increasingly lackadaisical and fall further behind until you just give up. Don't be too self-judgmental if you find yourself on the wrong end of the stick now; give yourself the gift of reprieve. Scheduling additional time off can be accomplished without comparing your actual production to your high ideals. Focus on your potential, not your limits.

Last night I fell asleep at my desk and slept right through until about 5:00 am without talking to Mom.  I missed talking to Mom and it made me mad at myself.  I know how much we both share our need for talking and sharing what we talk about.  So, thinking I had maybe an hour extra to prepare for my morning, I organized and did some typing.  Is it typing or texting when using a personal computer instead of a typewriter?  I don’t know.  Typing.  Texting.

At about 6:00 am, I started to make coffee and ate a dried out hot cross bun from last night.  I was still dressed, but I decided to change my outfit to match the coolness of the morning.  A pair of slacks and a long sleeved shirt were what I found to wear.  I then decided to take along my bathing suit just in case the weather improved enough to tan.  Then I looked at my feet.  They were swollen and bright red in colour.  Not good.

There was a little sample bottle of body lotion on my night table.  I liberally spread the thin white cream all over my burnt areas.  My feet were first to get an application of cooling cream.  Then, I paid attention to my legs and thighs before I buttered up my face and neck areas.  I didn’t know how good the thin white cream would be but something was better than nothing.
  
It was 6:30 am when I felt the first pangs of needing to go to the bathroom.  I made my way from the desk through the kitchen, dropping off an armful of things along the way.  When I turned on the bathroom light and sat down, two cats vied for attention.  Dory was first but Twister was more important, so I coaxed her in to lay on the mat at my burning feet.  I have to say that my attention was divided between two cats and my urge to purge.

At about 7:15 am, I finally finished combing and petting cats besides cleaning up myself.  I didn’t know what the time was.  I did know that I was way over the time I had allowed myself as extra time to spare.  I sat down to my desk when my phone rang.  It was Peter who phoned to find out what I was up to and where.  I told him that I was late and had to go fast.  He told me I should have left fifteen minutes ago and to get a move on.  I already had a move on and was about to dash now.  Bye.
I went as fast as I could go up to the General Hospital.  I knew where I had to go and how to get there.  I rolled straight up to the crowded waiting room of the module I was supposed to be early for.  I didn’t even know what time it was when I registered as present at the reception’s window.  All I do know is that within a few minutes, I was called into the testing room.  Within five minutes, I was back out and done with the breathing test as it is applied to me.  There are no sounds, no prompting, and nothing untoward to set me off.  That nurse is so kind and understanding, at least to me after my latest tale of woes I told her.   

The breathing test usually is a complicated measuring of your breathing process that takes about half an hour or so.  Repeated testing is done over and over with the very loud prompting by a female’s high pitched yell.  I can’t do that.  It sets off my rage and I have to bash something as hard as I can.  It scares everyone when my eyes turn beet red and I start shaking with surges of pure adrenaline.  It’s war.  Do you want to play again?

I admit that I have had a life that nobody would possibly want.  I know I have trouble sleeping because of buckets of sweat and bouts of kicking and swinging arms.  Peter knows he is safe as long as he doesn’t move from his prone position at his side of the bed.  I can’t get help because I would be committed at the least and imprisoned likely.  Peter doesn’t want to lose me nor do I want to lose him.  Oh well, I try as best I can to keep the peace quietly.

Peter and I played a game of crib to start the morning off.  I had lost the two previous games and was ready to win a game.  The crib game went very fast.  I skunked Peter, who groaned and moaned about the loss.  So, we played a second game of crib.  Would you believe that I skunked Peter again with a double skunk score.  Peter was not happy at all about the two losses in such a manner.  I smirked a bit but merely asked Peter when had I ever beaten him like that before.  His reply was that I had done so a few years before out in Vernon when we crossed Canada.  By then, it was time for us to go to my appointment at the other side of the hospital.

We both climbed onto our electric wheelchairs and left the ward of four beds.  It was a short trip to the appointment so I was able to stop along the way for a smoke.  Peter patiently waited for me to do my thing.  Then we rolled on to the sixth floor where the appointment was.  The receptionist was kind and smiling as she did the paperwork for my appointment.  Within a short time we were sitting in room 7, a spacious examination room for doctors with wheelchair bound patients.  

Our doctor was a short little timely woman who bubbled over with positive energy.  She was into a lot of local projects that were intended to help the poor people of the downtown area.  Fortunately for her, she was able to enlist help from various media to further her intentions of spreading word of the help by the program she funded.

Our inspired little doctor was bubbling over with positive affirmations of various aspects of health motivated facts.  Cut down and even quit the habits of drinking coffee and smoking.  Change diet to avoid salt, sugar, and starch based foods.  Most over the counter drugs are not helpful for the reasons why they are taken in the first place.  We already knew that, but she wanted to say it as if for our benefit anyways.

I had numerous aliments that needed to be addressed, but not by her.  There were other professionals in the health industry that were more likely to be of use to me in attending to my ills.  There wasn’t much use she could be to us in helping us cope with our COPD afflictions.  Perhaps she could see us in a time of about three or four months from now.  With that said, she handed me two forms, one a prescription for a referral to a specialist doctor and the other a form to get an appointment at a later date.

I should have made a copy of my morning breathing tests.  It would have told me that my breathing had shrunk 400 ml less than the last test at Christmas time.  The tests also informed me that my breathing was operating at about 59 % of what would have been considered normal for my lungs.  My breathing was actually not all that bad considering that it was my back causing me most of my disability.  





  

     

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                          We're still picking up on the positive vibes of the friendly Aquarius Moon, especially as she receives a new wave of support from the lighthearted Gemini Sun. Furthermore, the Moon cooperates with hardworking Saturn in inspirational Sagittarius, bringing a healthy dose of stability into our lives. We're able to envision a future that's different than the present moment, yet we do it in such a practical manner that we can actually realize our dreams.

You might wake up with lofty intentions today, aiming to be methodical about accomplishing your goals. But as the day wears on, you could become increasingly lackadaisical and fall further behind until you just give up. Don't be too self-judgmental if you find yourself on the wrong end of the stick now; give yourself the gift of reprieve. Scheduling additional time off can be accomplished without comparing your actual production to your high ideals. Focus on your potential, not your limits.

Today, which is actually now yesterday at about 5:00 am on the fifteenth of the month of June in 2017, started off in a reasonable enough manner.  I was up at about two hours early before having to leave to visit Peter in the Rehab unit of the General Hospital.  I was in a good mood and set about getting everything ready to go.  Uhuh.

I fussed about trying to get everything ready for the backpack that included two little jars of ointment for Peter’s skin condition and two Thermoses of coffee.  I also packed half of the remaining Tuesday Chicken Tenders and Wedgies for Peter to snack on.  It all doesn’t seem like much but time was a wasting and slipping by far too fast.  I would up being half an hour late by the time I locked the front door and headed out to the hospital.  Why is that?  I didn’t want to be late and yet half an hour seems such a long time.

My eyes are sore and my feet are swollen puffy red and sunburned.  They are tender just to sit with my feet on the floor.  I should be hungry but I am six pounds heavier than when I weighed myself three days ago.  Where did three days go?  I don’t think it was already three days and there it is, gone on the big calendar in the kitchen.  I have to shovel off my desktop because it is so dirty and cluttered with stuff and my to do list.

Last night I sliced and buttered two hot cross raisin buns and set them on my desk to eat.  I fell asleep before those little buns made it into my mouth.  And, that little bit of Kahluah in my Thermos coffee didn’t please Peter nor I.  The flavour was just a little off enough to be distasteful.  Oh, my gums are sore from biting into the stiffly dried out little hot cross buns.  Another reason to think why is that happening?  ed         
                       

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It's a whole new ballgame today as our overactive minds dream and scheme to make our fantasies come true. The conceptual Aquarius Moon forms an intellectually powerful Grand Air Trine that places logic over feelings. A Mercury-Jupiter trine encourages communication, while aiming our thoughts into the future. Meanwhile, Mercury's dynamic square to nebulous Neptune muddies reality. We're not afraid to go out on a limb in the pursuit of happiness.

It's as if you are riding on a freight train of words today, without knowing where it might stop. Interpersonal communication takes up much of your time, yet it's about to become even more important. You could receive some sort of good news, but it's tricky to discern it from all the other incoming emails, telephone calls and conversations. Pay careful attention to every little detail so you don't let a golden opportunity slip through your fingers. Your next adventure is waiting for you to say yes.


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Today is Monday and it is the first day of the week that Peter stays in the Rehabilitation Center on the second floor.  I didn't make it to bed because Peter left for the hospital at 9:00 pm last night.  I can't sleep without Peter beside me to keep the bogeyman away.  I managed to get an hour's worth of sleep at my desk instead of going to bed after talking to Mom on FaceBook at midnight.  Oh well, we will see how it goes tonight.  

I spent all day dressed up in my bathing suit a la Jungle Jane costume.  I know it is at least a decade or more in age, but it is in good shape and looks nice as far as I am concerned.  So, the result of all of that sunshine means that I have bright red sun burns all over except my face and forearms.  I will have to coat myself in Aloe Vera.  I should go from bright red to a vivid green in colour, eh?

Peter will be spending three more weeks including this one in the Rehabilitation Center for the program of Thrombosis Rehabilitation that goes for a full month.  Peter gets to have the weekends at home because I am disabled and need his care for certain things like brushing my hair and doing my pills for my weekly pill box.  It is a small thing that I can manage to  get around in one way or another.  I miss Peter.

The place had a major cleanup today by washing the couch and then wrapping it in plastic.  The idea was to have a small battle against an invasive force that was relentlessly taking over the place we call home.  Then after visiting with Peter the second time, it was a continued battle all evening long of scooping up agents of the enemy and dropping them into a little glass bottle.  So many times I felt like I was losing the battle.  Today was just another day of the  battle continued as I did what I could to clean and otherwise destroy the enemy when and where I found them.


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Seismic shifts shake our lives today as two planets change signs. We may try to simplify love and accumulate wealth while magnetic Venus visits sensual Taurus for the next month. But we might grow restless with our current circumstances as interactive Mercury enters fickle Gemini for a two-week stay. Meanwhile, the transformational Scorpio Moon holds our feet to the fire, insisting on full metamorphosis rather than a whimsical change of heart.

Downsizing might not come easily now, but the advantages are readily apparent. Your key planet Venus sashays through pragmatic Taurus over the next few weeks, prompting you to get back to basics. Unfortunately, the pressure of eliminating non-essential activities could be a primary source of anxiety. Nevertheless, there's no reason to retreat from confronting your fears; engaging deep processes can ultimately add more beauty to your life.

Today started off in an interesting way.  I had no sleep at all while watching videos on YouTube.  7:00 am slipped up in a sneaky way almost without my noticing it.  Lack of sleep is deleterious to one’s own competency as well as being very unhealthy.  I don’t like either in any particular way.  Getting sleep should be added to the top of my priority list.

At a little after eight o’clock in the morning was when I rolled into Peter’s bed space.  Peter was sitting with his back to the window, slowly eating what was left of his breakfast.  I was offered a few choice items of which I took a muffin with butter and a little cup of mandarin oranges in juice.  Peter and I talked casually and Bill from the other bed at the window added a few cents worth.  We all had a happy and friendly manner towards each other.  I liked that as did everyone else.

Peter and I didn’t play crib because Peter only had until 10:00 am before he had to do his physio session.  Ten minutes before Peter had his physio session, he got ready and started to make his way down to the Rehab office on the ground floor.  I accompanied him to the Rehab office where we kissed and said our goodbyes.  I would return later in the day with a fresh Thermos of coffee.  Ok!

It had just started to rain when I went outside.  It was a light rain that fell as I raced for the nearest bus stop.  There was no way I could think of going home on my electric wheelchair if it were to rain even as lightly as it was.  I made it to the bus shelter without getting too wet.  A few minutes later, a bus rolled up and stopped to take on a few passengers going in the wrong direction.  

I waited a few minutes more before another bus stopped and began lowering it’s ramp.  I scuttled onto the bus, bouncing from one railside of the ramp to the other.  I stopped at the top and used my Presto card to pay for my fare.  Quickly I went to the right hand side of the bus and parked by backing up against the tubular reinforcement behind the driver’s seat.  Ok, I am good to go.

The rain hadn’t let up by the time I got off at the mall.  I raced through the light rain in the direction of home.  I was wet by the time I made it to the back doors of the building although my hand did a good job of covering my controller.  I took the elevator to the tenth and raced down the length of the hall.  I almost collided with the locked door with my key held out to turn the lock as quickly as I could.  I knew the bedroom heater fan was going and I would warm up soon.   


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Cathy,
  time doesn’t heal. Only one becomes accustomed to pain and it becomes bearable. Pain eats everything from inside and you have been through it all to say with conviction that the passage of pain transforms you as a person. This is the lesson you have learnt from pain and it has only taught you how to deal with it.

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We're not as eager to see every issue from both sides once the Moon leaves reasonable Libra to enter emotional Scorpio at 6:45 am EDT. We're more likely to listen to our hearts, even if it leads us into uncomfortable situations. Unfortunately, we might not be able to wrap our minds around our desires and talking about them doesn't seem to help. Nevertheless, a creative Jupiter-Saturn alignment enables us to magically pull a solution out of thin air.

You can't tell if you're reading someone's behavior correctly today and you don't want to embarrass yourself by jumping to a wrong conclusion. You prefer to believe that your optimism is based on what you're seeing and hearing, but there's enough ambiguity now to make you question your judgment. To complicate matters, you could overcompensate and assume the worst. Both extremes are probably deviations from reality. Continue to observe those around you while sticking as close to the middle of the road as you can. Clint Eastwood said, "The less secure a man is, the more likely he is to have extreme prejudice."

I finally got to sleep in mid morning.  I slept right through until 7:00 am for a whole two hours of sleep.  My eyes are fuzzy but I can still see well enough.  I took my time getting dressed because I kept getting winded.  I went into the bathroom and brushed my hair.  Then, I gathered up what Peter had asked me for and put it all in my knapsack.  I had a monocular set of glasses, my three patches and the plastic bag, two bottles of Mountain Dew, a Thermos of fresh coffee, My pill box, and my hair brush.  The last two went in first and I couldn’t bother to pull them out again.

The roll to the hospital’s Rehabilitation took only half an hour under threatening skies.  I had a smoke along the way and took a few pictures also.  It was a smooth trip for all intents and purposes.  Yet, there was an incident when a black pickup truck stopped across a crosswalk.  

I rolled right up to the black pickup truck and yelled swear words.  The driver slowly rolled the window down a bit and asked if there was something wrong.  I repeated my F U swear and immediately turned and zipped around the front of the truck.  The driver couldn’t see me while a clear spot went by in the traffic.  He was prevented from making his left turn in the morning rush.  He had to wait a little longer at least until I reappeared on the other side of his truck.

I rolled up quietly to Peter’s room.  Then I sped up and squealed my wheels to a stop at Peter’s bedside.  I greeted him and we talked for a while.  I ate a muffin before I decided to go for a smoke.  About half an hour later, I returned to Peter’s bedside.  We played crib for about an hour with my winning the game.  Then I escorted Peter down to the main floor and the Rehabilitation Center.  We kissed goodbye and I am supposed to go up again at about 6:00 pm.

I went home in a very tired condition.  I managed to stay awake for about two hours before I slipped off my shoes and crawled into bed as dressed as I was.  It was 4:30 pm when I woke up and started to struggle to get my act together.  I had to run around to get my pillbox and take my 4:00 pm pills.  I found them and sucked up the needed seven pills with some Thermos coffee.  I still had almost a full Thermos and was about to make another pot of fresh coffee.  I did that before I started eating from a container of egg and potato salad.  I ate about a bowl full before the coffee stopped perking in the coffee machine.  I put the container of potato salad back into the fridge on my way to the bedroom.  I had to put on my shoes and return to my desk.

At my desk I had to reload my pouch with camera, phone, and cigarettes.  Why I had taken everything out in the first place is beyond me.  I should have left it in my pouch.  I slung the pouch over my neck and went to the kitchen.  I added three icecubes to the two Thermoses.  Then I added five spoonfuls of sugar to my black Thermos with the red stripe.  Only after all of that could I fill the Thermoses to the top before twisting on the caps.  A quick wipe made sure the Thermoses were dry before taking them to the electric wheelchair.

The electric wheelchair is my gomobile.  It takes me to all of t he places I can’t go by myself.  My walking capability is that diminished.  I can barely manage to walk from one end of the apartment to the other before I am forced to stop and rest partly from being out of breath and partly from having to recoup my strength from my exertions.  It is really not easy being disabled.

It had been overly cloudy all day.  It had rained while I slept after I had made it home in a dry condition.  Now, it was still threatening but not raining as I made my way up to the hospital in twenty five minutes.  It isn’t a record time but it is a fairly steady clip of about ten kilometers per hour.

Peter was snoring when I rolled to a squealing stop at the foot of his bed.  He didn’t miss a beat of snoring.  So, I slipped off my shoes and cuddled up beside him on his hospital bed.  He roused enough to raise his arm for me to lay my head upon it.  At the same time he checked his watched and smiled.  He knew I had brought fresh coffee.  And what’s more, I was snuggled up very close at his side.  He breathed a few times before he began to snore again.  A minute later and I was snoring too.

We slept snuggled up together for about two hours.  I stirred upon hearing a nurse talking to a patient right across from us.  I sat up and that was enough to wake Peter up.  We both sat up in time to see the nurse start walking in our general direction.  I felt a little relieved that the nurse hadn’t needed to wake us up for her nightly rounds.  After the nurse took Peter’s vitals and asked a few questions, we decided to play crib.

We had played a game of crib earlier in the day.  I won that game plus two other games from the previous day.  So we started dealing out cards and pegging points.  I won that game and the next game.  I am very competitive when it comes to cards.  There are only a few card games I can play without getting into trouble or causing trouble.  I think of it as being just one of those things that can’t be explained easily.

It was 9:30 pm before we finished playing crib.  I had won five out of six games that we had played since Peter had started staying at the hospital.  Playing crib was fun for both of us.  We usually kept even in points on the board.  Once in a while I would get very high scoring hands, more often than Peter was able to.  He would win games often enough to keep him in the game, as it were.  Still, we would have fun and get excited over one thing or another.  

The crib board and pegs were put away, along with the deck of cards.  We hugged each other and kissed goodbye.  With that, I set out to go home.  If it was raining, I would take the bus.  If it wasn’t raining, I would walk home in twenty five minutes.  

Having decided to walk home, I could only hope that the rain would hold off long enough for me to get home.  Twenty five minutes later I hadn’t quite made it to the front door before a mist settled down and a very faint bit of rain fell.  I wasn’t perfectly dry at the front door, but what I would call slightly damp.

Home was a happy destination for me.  I rolled through the door and locked it before I was greeted by Jessica.  It was a relief to know that someone would be at home with me for the night.  I have a terrible time being alone, especially while taking the fifteen prescriptions I have.  No, not nice at all.  So, I had something to eat and poured a 113’ F bath for myself.  At the same time, I had sessions with both cats, Dory and Twister.  Then I soaked and sweated myself.

Drying off is always a lengthy exercise for me.  It takes about two hours for my hair to damp dry.  Not completely.  It takes me only an hour to cool enough to stop sweating and dry off with two bath towels.  We have those.  I put on my pink kimono and went out onto the balcony for a smoke.  Jessica joined me.

I was fifteen minutes late to start up FaceBook and call Mom on it.  Mom was a little slow to answer because she was reading an article from FaceBook on another webpage.  Sometimes the other webpage prevents a call connection.  We talked for half an hour before I admitted that I was tired and ready to call it a night.  We said goodbye and closed FaceBook.

I spent another three hours working away on StupidThree.  I should have gone to bed.  I should have done a lot of things.  Fact is that I was reading an article on one website while listening to another video about anomalies on a second website, all while composing the blog.  It seems to be the only way I can keep up to the gruelling pace I set for myself.  There are so many things that I want to do and not enough of me to do it all without having clones of myself,  You must know that feeling far too well.      

        

  

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The atmospheric buzz settles down today -- or at least is internalized. We begin to doubt a recent decision and grow even more confused by our options when the Sun squares nebulous Neptune. A creative Mercury-Neptune alignment amplifies our fantasies, sending our thoughts on a wild goose chase. Although the diplomatic Libra Moon encourages us to remain objective, energetic Mars sinks into emotional Cancer, prompting us to respond subjectively.

You may be thinking about redirecting your energy to take care of your own needs, instead of looking out for everyone else. Luckily, self-starter Mars enters your 10th House of Social Status today, amplifying your inclination to weigh all your options before choosing which professional path to follow. Your entire life is on the cosmic scales now and everything is up for recalibration. Surprisingly, there is more time than you think, so don't make any rash decisions now. Vincent Van Gogh wrote, "Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together."

This morning I went to sleep in bed at about 5:00 am.  I must have slept a whole hour before I was awake and up to go to the bathroom and have a smoke out on the balcony.  Then I watched a movie.  I was into a second movie when Peter woke up at about 9:00 am and went to the bathroom.  He came out to the livingroom and proceeded to give me a lecture about sleeping.  It will be a rainy day but that isn’t why we won’t be going anywhere.  I simply didn’t get enough sleep to be able to do anything.  The lecture slowly wound down as Peter began taking his puffer medicines.  He had to hold his breath for a while before breathing again.

Eventually Peter made a pot of coffee.  Fresh coffee sat for an hour before it was actually poured into cups.


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  Cathy,
You are a mighty, brave and courageous person. You love immensely and care deeply. Your behaviour comes from heart that is divine, pure and heavenly. But, people should never take advantage of your generosity and kindness. If they do,they have made a huge mistake. You will show them your bad-ass and savage side and take them down like a fire-breathing Dragon takes down his enemies - to ashes and dust! This is the meaning of your name. You are precious, rare and one-of-a-kind. Share your result and let the world know who you truly are!


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Mosquito Repellent:

Here's what you'll need:
- 30 drops of lemon-eucalyptus essential oil blend
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 4 ounces witch hazel, rubbing alcohol, or vodka
Mix the witch hazel, essential oil and vanilla extract into a small spray bottle.
You're all set! This formulation will only last for about four hours, so don't forget to re-apply it as needed.


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Type A

A)You keep your feelings guarded and you aren't very open with strangers.
B)You prefer to present yourself as much stronger and more independent than you actually are. However, once you feel connected, you are a deeply emotional person with the ones you trust.
C)You despise lies, hypocrisy and dishonesty because it goes against your beliefs.
D)You are known to be a bit eccentric and arrogant. You don't suffer fools.
E)You have a big heart, and you like to help others.
F)You are a diligent worker - you will finish every task you are given, even the boring ones.
G)You enjoy having a good laugh, and can laugh at anything and everything as long as you are amused, even if it’s not so funny.
H)Your expressions reveal all of your thoughts - especially in your eyes.

Type B

A little shy and reserved, you don’t like to be the first one to approach someone.
In relationships, you are very loyal and devoted. When you fall in love, you give them your full attention - they are always on your mind.
Deep down inside you have a very sensitive soul.
You keep secrets so well that people often think you're aloof, but you're just pretending to be clueless in order to protect someone’s feelings.
Once you set your mind on something, you are committed to seeing it all the way through
More than most, you’re scared of getting hurt. Although people think that you don’t need anyone, you secretly dream of finding your soulmate.
You are a rock - you always remain calm in the midst of chaos

Type C

You're not one to hold a grudge, not much makes you upset.
You're uncomfortable with the unknown, and you definitely don't like surprises.
People would describe you as open-minded, you are very respectful of other's opinions.
Your ego tends to lean towards the bossy side and you get quite worked up during arguments, but you are always the first to apologize afterwards.
When it comes to your problems, you would prefer to keep them to yourself. It can be quite the challenge to your significant other, especially if they can't tell what's really bothering you.
As a straight-shooter, you prefer to surround yourself with honest people. You feel like you can depend more on someone who is brutally honest, than someone who sugar-coats everything.


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We take life more seriously today as sweet Venus is subdued by responsible Saturn. We're not as quick to succumb to our emotional whims. Fortunately, the stabilizing Venus-Saturn trine keeps our feelings in line and helps to ensure our integrity in love. Meanwhile, the practical Virgo Moon reflects our need to analyze all the available data before making any decisions. The more we focus on the details now, the easier it will be over the days ahead.

The tables are pleasantly turned today and it seems as if everyone is being extra nice to you. In fact, there's a hint of love in the air and there may be more going on now than what you see. If you're interested in romancing a special person, be certain to ascertain their feelings before you move too fast with your own. Nevertheless, it's really not complicated; just don't waste energy lost in self-analysis when you can share your thoughts with someone else. Rumi wrote, "Reason is powerless in the expression of Love."

I nodded off at my desk a few times last night.  By early morning I barely got half an hour’s worth of sleep.  Then I was up and at ‘em to get prepared for the morning.  There were things to get that Peter needed and I was the means to get it all to him.  I even had a Thermos of coffee extra for him to sip through the day.

Off I went at a little after 8:00 am.  The overcast sky was dark and cold, 13’ C cold.  I had my winter sweater on my electric wheelchair, along with my white sweater.  I had a heavy white cotton shirt with the sleeves rolled up and my bare forearms didn’t seem to mind the morning coolness.  I think it took about half an hour to get to the Rehabilitation floor where Peter was ensconced.  I surprised Peter at his bed by the window.  He was so happy to see me, hold me, and kiss a whole bunch!

The morning went by quickly as Peter went from one activity to another and from one therapist to another.  I had my own appointment at 11:25 am with Dr. Pitt.  He didn’t keep me waiting very long and his brief and perfunctory examination of his handiwork pleased him.  I had very little pain and only tenderness when I touched the scar.  Soon enough the stitches will dissolve and I will be considered healed from my trouble.

Now I am waiting for 6:00 pm to come around again so I can take another trip up to see Peter.  I have the things to take to him all ready.  It is just a matter of putting them into my knapsack and making some fresh coffee.  Thermoses full of fresh coffee would put a good aroma and mood out for everyone to enjoy.  My actual departure time turned out to be at 7:00 pm before the coffee was brewed and poured into the Thermoses.

I took about half an hour to be bundled up in the electric wheelchair going by the Mount Pleasant route.  I was warm but still roughed up by the bumps that were far less as rugged on me by the longer Riverside Drive route.  Still, it took some time after I had arrived to settle down enough to interact with Peter.  We played crib for three games.  I won two games out of three but I was silly with fatigue and falling asleep for moments at a time.  

Peter knew I was exhausted but I wouldn’t leave him to go home.  He decided to take me to Tim Horton’s in the hospital.  I allowed myself to have a hot chocolate while Peter had a chicken salad croissant.  The sugar in the hot chocolate began to revive me.  I began to feel more awake and energy flowed to my fingers.

Peter and I said our goodbyes and parted company.  I left through the back doors which happened to be the doors for the Cancer Clinic.  I went around to the front of the hospital and made my way to Pleasant Park.  In a short time I was home, almost shivering from cold.  I went to the bedroom and stripped down to crawl into my kimono.  Then I phoned Peter to let him I has arrived at home safely.  He was pleased that I phoned to assure him that I was safe and sound at home.  

Foolishly, I went to my desk and fell asleep after typing out a few paragraphs.  It was not what I wanted but it was what happened.  I woke up at about 3:30 am after having missed talking to Mom.  I wasn’t awake and up for very long before I fell asleep at my desk again.   


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May ends with a cosmic exclamation point as the planets issue so many conflicting orders we don't know what to do. The extroverted Leo Moon sneaks into timid Virgo at 12:15 pm EDT, shifting our emotional framework. Logical Mercury trines probing Pluto, inviting us to get to the bottom of a mystery. Meanwhile, a series of creative alignments urges us to explore new ways to express the magic lurking just beyond the limits of our perceptions.

You are willing to bring up a subject today that might be a conversation stopper on other days. But your jovial approach puts others completely at ease. It's as if you can turn your charm off and on at will, giving you the edge in an important negotiation. Nevertheless, you could be so confident of your message that you forget that communication is a two-way street. Make sure everyone gets a chance to share their opinions without feeling rushed. The Dalai Lama said, "When you talk, you are only repeating what you already know. But if you listen, you may learn something new."

Today tried to start off early but was no later than 7:00 am despite the 6:00 am alarm.  It is the day that Peter goes off to the hospital for the rest of the week.  We will see several things, namely whether I can be self sufficient, whether Peter can go that long without me, and what will happen that we don’t anticipate.  I am sure that there will be so many things happening just because we don’t want them to, and that the sky will fall or not.

The sky didn’t fall but the rain sure did.  Gatineau gets it again.  I had followed Peter up to the hospital and waited while he was admitted as a patient.  He will stay in the hospital until Friday when he will come home for the weekend.  The wait for admitting was long, almost a full hour before they began to take his information.  Meanwhile outside the storm was brewing up.

I decided to wander outside for a smoke so I took a little hike across the street called Ring Road.  It was soon after that my phone rang with Peter telling me that they were ready to take him up to his second floor room.  I was quick as a bunny to get back as fast as my electric wheelchair could go after I had put out my partially smoked cigarette.  Can’t waste them at their high prices.  

Up in Peter’s ward of our beds, it was bedlam.  A nurse named Cathy helped Peter get the right bed near the window.  Shortly after, a pharmacist came in and began going through all of the medications that Peter was taking.  A while later, a doctor showed up and examined Peter while he was contending with the questions of the kind pharmacist woman.  When both the pharmacist and the doctor had finished and departed, Peter’s lunch showed up.  Timing is everything when we are so closely linked in to synchronicity.  My fault.

I took a look at Peter’s lunch.  It was a macaroni and cheese plate with a little salad and tea.  There were condiments, to be sure.  Peter needed to be on a 1200 calorie diet and that lunch certainly was bland enough to be one.  I didn’t say a word about Peter’s lunch as he bade me to leave before the storm hit.  I saw on the weather map that a storm line was crossing over soon enough.

I did as I was asked and left.  It was a sad thing for me to leave Peter in the room accompanied by three other men in for pulmonary rehabilitation.  I decided not to take the fast bumpy way home.  Instead, I crossed over to Mount Pleasant road and follow that north to Riverside drive.  It was smooth in comparison to Smythe Road and a long piece of Riverside Drive.

The jaunt home took about half an hour.  The first thing I did was to clean the kitty litter.  That is a daily task that needs to be done with two large cats sharing the same litter box.  Too bad they aren’t trained to use the toilet like some cats I have seen doing.  Oh well.

Now I will try to list my priorities and get them done.  I am literally on my own until either Jessica shows up or Peter comes home for the weekend.  I have to keep myself busy or eat and sleep the time away.  It’s only a month that this will go on.  So, I will just make the best of it while I have the chance.  


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By now you're probably wondering if you can just dump the oils into a spray bottle with water and start spraying away. Well, not quite - there are a couple of extra ingredients that you'll need! Don't worry - making your own mosquito repellent is super easy!
Here's what you'll need:
- 30 drops of lemon-eucalyptus essential oil blend
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 4 ounces witch hazel, rubbing alcohol, or vodka
Mix the witch hazel, essential oil and vanilla extract into a small spray bottle.
You're all set! This formulation will only last for about four hours, so don't forget to re-apply it as needed.


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Most animals love honey, and ants are no exception. Worker ants eat liquids, but the queen and her baby larvae eat solids. In order to stop the colony from propagating, you'll need to make both liquid and solid treats for them to munch on.
For the solid ant bait: mix together borax and powdered sugar in a 1:3 ratio. So for every 1/4 cup of borax, add 3/4 cups of sugar.
For the liquid goo: mix together 1/4 cup of borax with 3/4 cup of honey or maple syrup.